...that scares you. You've heard that before, yes? Well, yesterday I did a self-tape audition that may have fallen into that category. Or maybe the embarrassment category. Still pondering. The audition wanted us to "dance at home as if no one is watching," which, in fact, I do all the time. I love to put on music and dance all around the cottage. I don't think about what I look like, I just move however I want to with the music. And sing pretty loudly because why not? It's a great workout and it's just great fun because no one is judging me, least of all me, and I can get all of my yayas out. It's especially fulfilling on a day like today where it's only 11 degrees outside but feels colder and I can't take my regular walk. SO, anyway, back to yesterday. "Dance at home as if no one is watching...." Well, if "no one" includes my fabulous partner who was helping me film (he totally never judges when I dance around the cottage when he's here - I think it also gives him a certain amount of joy) and the camera and the number of people who will be watching this tape, that instruction is kind of absurd. Because once you know someone is watching you do something, no matter what it is, you do it differently. Not better, necessarily; not worse, necessarily....just differently. I chose a song that I knew I could just get into without thinking about it and let it rip....and gosh darn it, I was totally self-conscious! It took more takes than I would have thought, and I'm not gonna lie, it was an exercise in humility to have to watch myself while editing my audition to send in. Gee, do I REALLY dance like that?! We are our own worst critics, aren't we? In the end, after going back and forth on should I submit this, I hit "send" and said what the heck? Be careful what you ask for!
I hope you dance while no one - or everyone! - is watching and have a blast doing it!