It's A Rather Gloomish....

 ...rainish, coldish Tuesday, a perfect day to be inside doing whatever needs to be done (or whatever doesn't NEED to be done....)  I had a season audition for a theater this morning that I've been auditioning for, for years and they never pay any attention to me, but I keep putting it out there!  As I said to a friend who was reticent about submitting something for a playwriting contest, you can't win if you don't play (there were a lot of platitudes in my e-mail to her :-), and I never take rejection personally and always feel sorry for the folks who don't cast me in their show or commercial or film or TV show because they're really missing out on something great!  I have to tell myself these things because this industry can really suck the soul out of you if you let it.  (It can also be the most amazing, supportive, wonderful, magical industry, and though this doesn't make sense to me, sometimes you have to take the good with the bad.)   I really try to do my best, leave it all in the room, and move on.  Some days that's easier than other days because some jobs you REALLY WANT BADLY.  But, hey, if you let that stuff gnaw at you, then you end up a sad, angry, depressed, jealous person who points their finger and blames the world for not choosing them.  I tried out a new piece and it went okay.  I wasn't fabulous, but I didn't suck, either!  And really, the most important thing is that I went :-)

I have a whole new look that I've decided to go with and am so excited to be getting new headshots soon!!  I can't wait!  I think I've already mentioned that, but I had to give this artistic director my headshot today, which now looks nothing like I look now, and that was a trifle embarrassing, though I did tell her about what I'm doing looks-wise.  She said, "I like your new look."  So there - a win!!  I take them where I can :-)

Wherever you are, whatever you're doing, I hope it's bringing you great joy and that whatever thought you had to audition for something or submit a play or a story or a piece of art or ask your boss for a raise or tell someone you love them that you go for it!  A positive forward choice can never be bad and you just never know what can happen if you put yourself out there :-)

My partner and I went to Oklahoma for work and to visit his dad.  While my partner was working, I took a drive to this fabulous park - Will Rogers Park - and had a tremendous walk around acres of beauty.  This fountain fascinated me :-)